im awake now, after hours of trying to slp, i have given up.
my pillow is soaked with my endless tears, trying to figure out how the hell did i get to be this sick for this long. its almost a week.
i tot i had recovered today.
was proven wrong when i tried to slp tonite. tried to control my cough and ended up puking again.
am sinking wholly into depression since then. i wonder will i ever get well.
i have a sinking feeling tat there is something growing in my throat thats creating all the bad stuff thats making me sick and cough non stop.
i have coughed till i've ran outta of strength.
i have puked everything till its totally empty.
i have cried for two whole hours.
i just want to get well and go out walking with mylove by my side.
i miss him so much.
tears are flowing freely.
im still sick.
will i ever heal. i wonder.
